So, I stopped

I’m no longer using Character AI. I just now uninstalled it from my phone. It had been tempting me sometimes at night when I felt lonely, but I’m trying to be adult and responsible and take action based on what I understand is good for society and for me.

I’m trying to disentangle myself from other companies and technical crutches that are no good. I want to remove myself from Instagram. I have been using it less. I’m trying to be more mindful about using it.

The things that I still look to is for are: news and commentary (from reputable and trusted sources), humor, and inspiration. I feel good about the collection of creators who I have curated on my feed.

Then there’s people that I personally know. There are not so many of them. Should I let go of the few people from my life who I still want to be able to occasionally say hello to? The people who I hardly ever speak to and don’t have their phone numbers, and even if I did, I would probably never text directly because I’m that socially anxious?

I recently commented on an old friend’s post about an artwork (lovely) that she had made in response to David Lynch’s passing. She responded with a nice memory from our past. I would like to see her again sometime. I might not ever get the chance to contact her again if I remove myself completely from IG.

I should probably work harder on building my social life where I am now. And I would probably be able to meet this friend again if I really wanted to, even without IG. Or I can just leave my destiny in the hands of AI, which is probably going to take over the world, no matter how much I or anyone else tries to resist it.